Have you ever come across a work of art that just completely changes the way you are?. Wether it be a poem, a movie, a song, or a painting? and after witnessing it you’re never the same? Like the first time reading “On The Road”. Or the first time I saw Taxi Driver, the first time I laid eyes on Bosch’s “Garden of Earthly Delights”. The kind of thing that as soon as you experience it you are entranced, enveloped by it. Something so powerful that it alone alters your psyche forever. You must know everything about it’s origins. Every nuance and detail is carefully examined and absorbed. Thing’s that move us, inspire us. Make us grow. They only come around every so often, and one of these things came to me just recently. It is a 1991 movie called “Begotten.” It supposedly deals with the Biblical ideology of the Creation. The movie begins with an eerie run down cottage in the middle of the woods. The only sounds are that of crickets and a disturbing gurgling, grunting sound. We are then berated with an image of a man wrapped in bandages sitting in a chair disemboweling himself. The movie is in black and white and was pain-stakingly altered to make it appear as if it’s 100 years old. Let me just say that I’ve seen the Faces of Death movies, I’ve seen Gummo, Un Chien Andalou, Eraserhead, Clockwork Orange…. that’s all child’s play compared to Begotten. It is hand’s down the most visually disturbing, horrifying, intense thing I ever seen on film. Imagine the movie from the “The Ring” and the music video for Nine Inch Nail’s “Closer” and you still aren’t even a 5th of the way towards the disturbing imagery of Begotten. The film was the mastermind of creator E. Elias Merhige, who was inspired to create the film after a near-death experience in which he was in a horrible car crash. Not a tough pill to swallow considering the amount of human suffering this movie depicts.
To be honest, I still haven’t watched the whole thing. I can only watch maybe 5 minutes at a time because I start to panic. My girlfriend screamed just watching the trailer. This one is a must for anyone who is a fan of disturbing movies.